Amy Krueger: Survivor!

My name was Amy Krueger. I was there in 1981...for about 10 months. Starting in the summer,we were out of school,I can't remember exact dates. I turned 16 while I was there. I weighed about 135 lbs. When I went in and the last time I was weighed there I was 117 lbs. I was regularly menstruating before going there. I did not at all after I was there.

I can remember working in their garden,from which we rarely got anything, helping to finish their house,cleaning their trucks,and any other chore they didn't want to do. Things had to be perfectly done too or we had to redo it plus we got into trouble!

(Trouble for me usually ended up with me on the floor getting beat!) If we wanted to see our families then that depended on us. How much we got in trouble, did we memorize our bible verses and catechisms(can't spell it) did we recite them back right,were our nails always good,hair always curled,notes from the sermons good?

I can still see the fenced in yard. The fence was so high you could only see the sky above it....I knew there was a world out there but I couldn't see it. We were totally cut off from civilization,we were their prisoners to do with what they wanted.

I was beaten every day until I played their game. It was about 4-5 months. It was so bad that my underwear stuck to my skin. I had two large open sores from the beatings. I was hesitant to say anything to the staff about them. I was afraid of their reaction. I was never taken to the doctor. They just took it upon themselves to 'treat' them. I was laid on the floor and had them wiped off, the door was almost always cracked open, anyone that walked by could see in,they were re-bandaged. I was beaten again at night. Even though they knew the shape my bottom was in. They said it was my fault...that I shouldn't have done whatever it was ...gotten into trouble.

During one of the rare visits I had with my father and little brother, I was told I would stay until I was ready for college. I was 16. I made the decision then that as soon as I could....I was gone! I was told to help another girl clean the room between the back door and the garage. I went to the garage to look for boxes and noticed All of the blinds on that side of the house were closed, no one was on the street, there was my chance! I had to try....I ran like my shirttails were on fire!They would not catch me!

I don't know how long or how far I ran but I ran until I thought my chest would explode. I hid in an open basement until dark. I walked, not even knowing if it was the right direction,down a highway until I saw a light on in a garage. I asked if I could use their phone to call my father. He had already been called by hh. The people ended up giving me a ride to the police dept. after stopping to get something to eat...which I inhaled..after all not only did I miss the snack they called meals I was starving to begin with!I walked in and saw some of the staff from the house and I was ready to run again. They would not ever touch me again! I let the police know about the abuse that went on there, I showed the woman the scars. They did nothing.

HH was taking a girl to Indiana that next day so they were going to take me there to meet my father. I was promised nothing would happen if I spent the night at the main house. Nothing did. I went home. I filed child abuse charges against hh. I was told they were closed and the girls were sent home. They lied!

This was a man that did this to us. Not JESUS CHRIST! I BELIEVE in HIM! I am alive today because of HIM.

Many things have happened in life but I've always known that no matter what goes on JESUS CHRIST is there.