I was there at HH from Oct-02 thru March-04.
When I turned 18 on Sept 4 of 2003, I asked to speak with someone about leaving. It took me a total of 6 months to actually leave that forsaken hell hole! I went through hours of Don, Ron, and the Halamyns (sp?) talking to me about why I needed to stay and reasons that if I had left now that I would be breaking a promise I made to God, and I would lead a life of "worthlessness.”
I was told that if I left that I wouldn’t have their "blessing"(what a joke right?). I remember being told that school work was the #1 priority there at the school when we first came there. I was devastated that I would be going through these PACE packets and learning very little, because cleaning other staff members houses were more important!! (These people were just LAZY!!)
I unfortunately did not finish my schooling while I was there. I came home and received a GED. The sad part is is that before I had been going to public school I was doing very well and on my way to graduating. I can still hear the cries of many of the girls I spent so much time with. There were nights in the dorm room where I would just beg and plead for these girls to receive peace. I laid in bed so nervous of what the next day might bring.
Were we going to have a scream fest from Patti (damn nutcase)? Were our chores not going to pass the white glove inspection? Were we going to eat rancid food? Was I going to have to down bottle after of bottle of magnesium citrate and then not be able to have permission to go to the bathroom? I could go on and on like so many other of us women.
I lay in bed still to this day and pray and beg God to bring this awful place to the ground, because as I'm writing this... There is a girl missing her mother, a girl wondering what she did so bad to deserve this, a girl who cries herself to sleep night after night, a girl who is mentally abused, a girl who is physically abused,a girl who is mentally abused!
I do have one positive thing that came from my stay at HH, and that is a bond that will forever be strong and unbreakable with some of the best women you could ever meet. Those girls that shared those bunk beds,those girls that share my stories,those girls that are there for me whenever I need to talk, I am thankful for every last one of them!!